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megansteele: So much love for my city. #RVA I luv rva....

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 23:36:06 -0500

megansteele:

So much love for my city. #RVA

I luv rva. #futurehome

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Thu, 03 Jan 2013 23:26:20 -0500

Guess what?! I hate you because of all the money you’ve taken from me and for all the damage...

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 23:24:33 -0500

Guess what?! I hate you because of all the money you’ve taken from me and for all the damage you’ve done and I’ve never had the chance to get you back. Ultimately I won first, I hope I hurt you the most because that’s the only rational reason why you would fuck me over so much and I never got the chance to bite back. I also fucking hate you, you should stop posting your shitty art on social networking sites because its fucking coloring book pages of ugly bitches you probably worked on for like 2 days perfecting the lines and then coloring it with your fancy prismacolors LOL. Seriously you are a naive ungrateful bitch why I ever tried to fix things with you and be nice to someone who fucked up- idk!!! Never again. I am holding on to massive grudges so that if you ever cross my mind ill always remember the shit that you guys have done to me and ill always have revenge in the back of my mind and ill always hate you just because that’s one of my favorite hobbies!!! Bitch4lyfe

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Fri, 14 Dec 2012 10:03:42 -0500

Amanda and her cousin Amy, Valdese, North Carolina by Mary...

Fri, 14 Dec 2012 10:01:38 -0500

Amanda and her cousin Amy, Valdese, North Carolina by Mary Ellen Mark
North Carolina, USA, 1990

In 1990, Peter Howe at Life magazine sent me to North Carolina to photograph a special school for children with problems. The school was a very strange place because all of the twenty or so children were in the same classroom and their problems ranged from mild behavior instability to severe schizophrenia.

Nine-year-old Amanda was the most interesting child in the class. She was my favorite child. Amanda was very intelligent and very naughty. One day I followed her home on the school bus. When the bus stopped at her house, she dashed ahead of me and ran into a nearby wooded area. I continued to follow her into the woods and eventually found her sitting in an old stuffed chair having a cigarette. She thought that I would reprimand her since I was an adult. But I said nothing.

The following Sunday, I spent the day at home with Amanda and her mother. Amanda totally controlled her mother. She constantly gave her orders and proceeded to put on her mother’s nail polish and makeup. Amanda smoked openly in front of her. Her 8-year-old cousin Amy was coming over, and she was very excited. All day long, Amanda and her cousin played like children. Every forty-five minutes or so, Amanda would take a break to have a cigarette. Her mother could say nothing; Amanda was the boss.

Just before I left, I looked for Amanda to say good-bye. I found her and Amy in the backyard. They were in a children’s inflatable pool. Amanda was taking her regular cigarette break.

I have so much animosity towards this guy

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 00:32:44 -0400

I truly wish he would just go away. I really wish both of you would actually overdose and have to go and live millions of miles away in a clinic for 5 years.

The boy I love tells me he loves me back, and sometimes even acts like he loves me. But sometimes...

Thu, 05 Jan 2012 01:56:56 -0500

The boy I love tells me he loves me back, and sometimes even acts like he loves me. But sometimes this boy plays games with my heart and fucks with my head. He never goes out of his way for me. He tells me to grow up when in reality he’s the one who’s childish. I’ve never felt more neglected. This boy has put me through hell more times then I can count on my hands. No one has ever hurt me as much as he has. No one has ever pretended to care like he does. No one has lied to me more than he. He doesn’t deserve me at all. I shouldn’t even love him, I could even go as far as he doesn’t even deserve love. He can’t handle a relationship. And I’ve tried so hard for this weird and very volatile relationship to keep from exploding. I don’t know what he cares about. Perhaps he cares for too many people, I’m not that special. I am so disposable to him. Maybe he cares for video games, and getting drunk, and taking drugs. He is a hypocrite. He is a liar. Even though I should actually despise this boy I am extremely attached to him. This is weird. I can’t explain why he means so much to me but I can’t be without him. He’s a big influence on me. I give him everything he wants when he has no money and when he has money. I’d do anything to make him happy. When he’s sad I comfort him, when he’s mad I give him a cigarette and calm him down. I scratch his back and watch him play video games. I would wait for this boy all day if I knew that at the end of waiting he’d be there all for me. I may not be the perfect girl for him, but I sure have given him all the love I can give him. I’ve taken all his punches. All the tears this boy has caused could fill up a huge swimming pool. I guess I’ve gotta be patient…because eventually he’ll give me the illusion that he cares and I finally feel important for a little while, or at least until I frustrate him or do something wrong. Then it’s back to crying and just begging for him to put the illusion back. I am so lost, it almost feels like I’m barely living. I don’t understand anything. I can’t find an oasis. Or channel my emotions into artwork. This boy makes me the happiest I can get or makes me feel like not eating for weeks and cutting my wrists— if I were into that kinda thing.

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Tue, 27 Dec 2011 11:05:31 -0500

methlabz: My new year last year haha better be mine this year

Tue, 27 Dec 2011 11:04:14 -0500

methlabz:

My new year last year haha

better be mine this year

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Tue, 27 Dec 2011 10:58:53 -0500

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Tue, 27 Dec 2011 10:58:17 -0500

all I do is spend time sitting on floors and staring off.

Tue, 27 Dec 2011 10:53:52 -0500

amyystoberr: amyystoberr: can anyone see it lol seriously!...

Sun, 11 Dec 2011 00:30:34 -0500

amyystoberr:

amyystoberr:

can anyone see it

lol seriously! tell me what you see!

i see amy winehouse?! ahaha i think its the hair do?

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Sun, 11 Dec 2011 00:15:50 -0500

jelkawaalewijn: thats me :$

Tue, 06 Dec 2011 23:25:48 -0500

jelkawaalewijn:

thats me :$

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Mon, 05 Dec 2011 23:35:19 -0500

i really really really like this song

Mon, 05 Dec 2011 23:33:58 -0500

i really really really like this song

wolves?

Sat, 03 Dec 2011 01:05:06 -0500

wolves?

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Tue, 29 Nov 2011 00:48:02 -0500

emilee-marie: fallonpfeiffer: so perf why

Tue, 29 Nov 2011 00:34:41 -0500

emilee-marie:

fallonpfeiffer:

so perf

why